I call to you.

 I call out to all intimidated med students, all humiliated residents, all disillusioned physicians,  "It's okay.  Everything is as it should be.  There is light in all darkness.  There is a lesson in every bump in the road.  And, the lesson here is, (and the lesson is always: your truth and your beauty) that you are a healer.  You have been given huge gifts for this purpose and have been given this dream and desire to set you on your course.  Do not let the mountains of knowledge you don't have, the loneliness and grinding fear of responsibility, the burden of physical and mental exhaustion, or the tedium and degradation of computerized, insurance controlled medicine deter you. That is merely the logical result of medicine as business in this competitive, unsupportive culture we live in.  Do not get sucked into it.  Do not let it define you. It is not a measure of your worth.  You can jump their hoops, play the game by their rules, but when the anxiety and anger come up, note them with a smile, return to the breathe, give yourself a hug! You say, "Isn't it interesting!  Isn't it funny."  The game is rigged! Let go of the huge judgement of yourself and the situation.  Cultivate some patience and forgiveness for yourself, and yes, congratulations and gratitude are in order.  In the morning meditation,  process the emotion and you will be reminded to love and trust yourself.  The question is, "What do I want?  What do I need right now? a run, a massage, a kind word, help?"  Ask for it!!  Let go of shaming yourself and blaming the system.  As a gift to yourself, create a support group, reach out to a friend, seek counseling.  But the most important gift is to note it with a smile, accept that it is what it is and redirect your energy to caring for yourself.  Pretty soon,  you begin to trust yourself that you can keep yourself safe and healthy in any situation.  And, that is self confidence.  And that is power.  And that is who you are.  You are a healer.