Lunch meditation, redirect
It's important to have a detach tool in your toolbox; not just for minor negative interactions but for the tornadoes that suck you up and grind you around for days of "Should of, would of, could of, what to do, what to do, oh no, I'm screwed." You need to put the brakes on! You need to put detach into your schedule. It would be good to have a lunch time meditation. Prepare your food. Sit down. Feast your eyes on this beautiful sustenance, this gift to yourself. Then close your eyes, take the deep and cleansing breathe, deep and slow, into the bottom of your belly, hold, savor, caress, release; and feel yourself open, loosen, soften. Note with a smile whatever is up in your head; become aware of it with compassion, without judgement or criticism, just acceptance, and return to the breathe. Note where in your body you hold the negativity, and breathe into it lovingkindness, healing calm and soften, loosen. And, opening your eyes, give yourself a gift, a hug, a loving word, a hand massage, perhaps a head and neck massage. And as you're doing it, you say, "This is for you because I love you." Repeat words of gratitude. "Thank you for me, my strength and my weakness, my journey inward to self awareness and self love, and for the bumps in the road that help me to grow. Thank you for You. Please help me to see You in every moment, to hear You, to feel You, to see You, even when I can"t see You, to guide me, to strengthen me, and to comfort me." Mindfully savor you lunch.
We have redirected our energy from trying to control the outside adversity to loving and caring for yourself. Remember, it's not what you do; it's how you do it. It's whether you see life as a picnic that you come to with a full basket to share or as a battlefield full of enemies that must be vanquished. You don't need to struggle. Let go of trying, of trying to control your self and your place in the universe. Your dreams and desires have been given to you to take you to your purpose. They are guaranteed. All you need to do is affirm them. Put them out there to the universe in wondrous anticipation, knowing they will be yours, when the time is right, when you have learned your lessons. Then come back to this moment in contentment and gratitude for where you are now. The question is, "What do I want?" And, you need to ask that every moment of your life. Listen for the answer, hear the answer, respect the answer and act on the answer. Move towards it, a little more each day, look it up on the internet, discuss it with a friend. It will happen. You will be a doctor!
People talk about trying to find their purpose. You need to know you are already serving purpose every moment of your life. You may never know what your purpose is. And, that doesn't matter. What is important is that you know you are purposeful. If you were not here the world would be a different place.