You are special!
With all your depression and dysfunction, you are normal! Everyone walking was raised with their share of codependency, responding to negativity, reacting from emptiness. But your journey inward to self awareness and self love is not normal. Most people continue in their dysfunction. You are special!
Remember, your life experience, as hard as it might have been, has made you into the person you are today, endowed with greater understanding and ready for this time of transformation. Nothing has been wasted. It has all been necessary. You return to the innocent child as you were created, now grown with the power of patience and practice.